Translate This Page
DRAFT My name is Joseph Kyle Horton. I'm 18 years old. I was born in the State of Arizona. I rent my own apartment. I have been in and out of many different households due to Child Protective Service and Family abandonment. I have experienced a lot in the time frame that I have been alive. In the year of 2004 I was taken away from my mother because of the incidents that where taking place in her household. When Child Protective Service removed me from my mother's household I was placed in a emergency shelter boot camp called "Canyon State Academy". While I was there for over 8 months, I guess I had made my final decision about my sexuality. I suppose when you are in CPS and on one of there campus with over 600 males and 15 different cottages you don't know what to do. So I was young and ready to make up my mind about what I choose to do. I decided that I liked males more then females. I respect the people that do not like gay people but I believe that we should all be treated the same since it is just genders that we are talking about. I'm not going to lie. While I was in the system it was not easy by any means at all! I was going in and out of emergency shelters, detentions, foster homes, group homes, treatment centers, etc.. I had to go day by day. There were many different people that I had to deal with in order to get something that I want or needed. Sometimes I did not think that my love life would get any better. After many different placements and case managers later I was placed back with my grandmother and mother for a period of time. When I was residing with them later 2005 I was attending Casa Grande Union High School as a freshman (9th grade). I tried to keep my eyes in my head and my head on my shoulders but when I seen the one, Demorea Epps. I could not help but try to flirt and gain the experiences of love. I continued to try to get his attention but I was too shy to do anything. I tried to maintain myself while I was giving him eye contact everyday. But soon after I was done waiting I decided to get his attention and talk with him. Sure enough he found that I was attractive too. Well the thing is we were dating each other for a while even though I was still in the CPS system under temp. custody of my mother. The funny thing I did not know that his cases were under CPS as well. So I got to know him and decided to try and understand what was going on in his life. So I soon found out that he had the same CM as me. We continued to keep on dating under those circumstances. After about six months he discontinued our contact and broke up with me. People the only reason I'm telling you about this is to make a point of fact. When I turned 18 I signed a contract with the State of Arizona and the Child Protective Service department to receive monthly check as part of there program- independent living for a good amount. I decided to go against there rules of allowing my self to have another body residing in my household. Demorea had been waiting for me until I reached age limit and until I had my life together. Well I allowed myself to have him leaving with me. I knew from the way that he treated me that things were not going to be good. But to make a long story short I treated him out to everything and provided for him to the fullest until on night he told me that he was sorry and that he did not mean to do what he did. He told me that the whole time that I was paying for his apartment, gas, cellphone bills, medical bills, etc. he was seeing someone else. I did not know what to do, I love him so much. I let a lot of people down of the actions that I did. I could not take him being gone every night and not being able to have the love that I gave him back in return. I took over 10,000 mg of medication (Trazadone and Weleburtron). After about 3 mins all I remeber was him walking done the stair case saying that I was nothing to him. I tired to follow but my body started to shut down. I was able to make it up the step into my house to call the ambulance. Luckily, the emergency room was able to bring me back to life. This is not a joke and I don't know why i'm posting this on my site besides to tell you that things get tough but nobody on this whole earth is worth your own life. Since that horrible scenery I have got a job at Zales, doubled my income level nearly twice and enrolled in school. Please do not use this information against me as it is only to tell you a little about me. |
Your thoughts matter! Send it......
miguel-Hero.mp3
